The past few weeks have been interesting. Not in a bad way, but not in a great way either. Yesterday my doctor gave me news that I saw coming...from a mile away. Diabetes runs in my family. I actually had a doctor (not the same one) tell me I have horrible genes.... there is a reason I don't see her anymore! Yes, it runs on both sides of my family, my mom, my dad, my aunt, my grand parents.... blah blah blah... But this also may have been preventable. Maybe not...maybe even if I was taking the best care of myself eventually I would still have a doctor telling me what she told me on Wednesday. There is two ways I could deal with it that probably wouldn't help my situation at all...in fact it would probably hurt it.
I could blame myself for not sticking to a healthier diet or dropping the weight I need to drop and make myself feel terrible for something that I am going to always be stuck with.
I could blame it on my horrible genes... after all, I was probably going to get this anyways...
But you know what I am doing instead? Neither... beating myself up or throwing the blame onto something that is supposedly out of my hands won't help. Instead I am making an effort to stay positive, stay active, and make better decisions about what I eat. Is it going to be easy? NO....but if I want to live and be happy that is what I have to do, right? I have seen Diabetes' effects on the body if it isn't in check...that is not a road I want to go down.
Now, you might be wondering what this has to do with writing...because it totally does have something to do with it! Amidst doctors visits and my general feeling like crap... I haven't written in a couple weeks either. Let me make that clearer, I haven't been writing more of my WIP, and my blogging has been less frequent. On one end of the stick, I could get upset at myself for not keeping to goal, which would probably not help me write more. Or I could simply blame my lack of progress on feeling like crap. Well...to a point that is valid, but I am feeling a bit better now that we have figured out what has been making me feel that way. And I am still not writing... hmmm. I've set Friday/Saturday to tentatively get back into it. I've been working on the outline too so that should help.
At some point in both writing and life you have to kick your ass back into gear. You have to learn to persevere. Don't beat yourself up if you don't always make your goals...but don't make a habit of not making them.